Ok, so let’s start this post by showing some serious love for this piece of art that HealthyPlace.com has floating around Pinterest. One look at this colorful creation and I was immediately inspired for this week’s motivational piece. Partly because I adore the words of Oscar Wilde and mostly because this is exactly what my brain has been looking like the past few weeks.
See the things is, while I have spent the past few weeks moving & shaking, I was sure that I was on my way to some sort of peaceful state of mind. Instead all these recent changes happening in my life have started to put my mind into overdrive. Now we are breaching the point of overload and Momma is just not prepared to have a pre-summer mental breakdown (so not cute). While this picture is fun to look at, the vision of my own brain melting out the colors of the rainbow is not as entertaining. So, let’s talk this out.
On my ride home from work tonight, I had this moment where I all of the sudden, fully acknowledged all of the over thinking that I do on a daily basis. I started to tally in my mind, the countless moments (which turn into minutes which end up being hours) in which I spend just thinking about who, how, what, where, when, and why. While I appreciate the fact that my brain is capable of putting forth such effort in making decisions, it’s also downright exhausting to care this much. The anxiety build up inside of me when trying to figure out what the best move for me career wise, or relationship wise, or even blog wise, is draining and frankly, I’m sick of it. I think it’s time to start trusting my gut (not that I am inviting any attention to my ‘in need of the gym most’ areas). I think it’s time to settle into some comforts of who I am right now and ultimately the person I want to be.
Isn’t that the real goal in life; to be comfortable with who you are? In my opinion, I’d like to just run with the awesome person I know is inside of me while grabbing hold of little accents of life that build a better version of this me. These accents are things like knowledge and experience and growth. They are things obtained by our relationships with others, our travels and most importantly, our adventures [more on those things in the future]. Until then, I think it’s time to start acknowledging my real passions, some of which will make their way onto this blog. A new direction, a new outlook, but still the same Rachel.